With all that is going on in the world it is hard to not be at least even a little scared. I have always been the “strong woman”. I am a Navy brat, and growing up watched my mother be the strong woman. Then I married into the Navy and learned how to be that same woman myself. It is ingrained into me.
Typically, I hold things together pretty well. It is who I am and how I have always been. I only tend to lose control in private where no one can see. I can not let anyone, especially my kids, see me lose it. So I will cry in the shower, bath, as I am driving alone, where no one sees it. I even would find a reason to watch The Notebook, just so “i have a reason” to cry.
Some may say this is not healthy. It is who I am, who I have always been. Who I will always be. I must be strong for my family.
So am I holding it together now, when the world is in crisis? I am full of positive vibes, reassuring smiles and heck I would crap glitter if I had enough toilet paper to clean it up. I am watching our world panic, scared of the unknown and it scares the crap out of me. I am scared for my parents, my family and my friends. I am also scared for me, as technically I am at risk because I suffer from asthma. Is it going to do any good to sit here and worry and join in the panic and hoarding of things that others need? NOPE.
I am taking each day as it comes. I am keeping a smile pasted on my face and doing all I can to live as normally as possible. This said, I am also doing what is asked and sheltering in place. I am still working, as I work in a small hotel, so I literally go to work and come home. At work, there is very limited contact with other people as we have taken many precautions to ensure everyone’s safety.
I hope if you are reading this, you are doing your part to help stop this Virus, and sheltering in place as much as possible. I pray that it is under control sooner rather then later, and I pray that you are well.
I share the song below, because now more then ever, it seems right.
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So, let’s start giving
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me