What are you doing to pass the time?

My job is essential, so I am still working full time. I am sanitizing everywhere and keeping distance. I do expect my hours to get cut some next week. I work in a small hotel. Fortunately no one here has been laid off, just reduced hours, or using accumulated vacation.

I woke up yesterday morning and actually worked out before work. This is a big deal, for me anyway. I am a night time workout person. I repeatedly try to get up and work out before work, but end up sleeping more instead.

Like today. I set my alarm to get up, haha and went back to sleep. So there will only be one workout today.

Other then that we are using evenings as together time. Eating at home ( I’ve not cooked this many days in a row in, well huh, ever I think. Lol.) Watching movies, or finding a new show to watch, those are our evenings.

What are you doing to fill time?

PS.. I sometimes workout in my PJs.

Scary Times

With all that is going on in the world it is hard to not be at least even a little scared. I have always been the “strong woman”. I am a Navy brat, and growing up watched my mother be the strong woman. Then I married into the Navy and learned how to be that same woman myself. It is ingrained into me.

Typically, I hold things together pretty well. It is who I am and how I have always been. I only tend to lose control in private where no one can see. I can not let anyone, especially my kids, see me lose it. So I will cry in the shower, bath, as I am driving alone, where no one sees it. I even would find a reason to watch The Notebook, just so “i have a reason” to cry.

Some may say this is not healthy. It is who I am, who I have always been. Who I will always be. I must be strong for my family.

So am I holding it together now, when the world is in crisis? I am full of positive vibes, reassuring smiles and heck I would crap glitter if I had enough toilet paper to clean it up. I am watching our world panic, scared of the unknown and it scares the crap out of me. I am scared for my parents, my family and my friends. I am also scared for me, as technically I am at risk because I suffer from asthma. Is it going to do any good to sit here and worry and join in the panic and hoarding of things that others need? NOPE.

I am taking each day as it comes. I am keeping a smile pasted on my face and doing all I can to live as normally as possible. This said, I am also doing what is asked and sheltering in place. I am still working, as I work in a small hotel, so I literally go to work and come home. At work, there is very limited contact with other people as we have taken many precautions to ensure everyone’s safety.

I hope if you are reading this, you are doing your part to help stop this Virus, and sheltering in place as much as possible. I pray that it is under control sooner rather then later, and I pray that you are well.

I share the song below, because now more then ever, it seems right.

We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So, let’s start giving
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me

It’s about mindset, not diet.

I went out to get dinner for both of us, because we have nothing here that was ready to cook. I went to KFC for him, and was going to Wendy’s for me. I had every intention of getting a burger and fries from Wendy’s. But then something happened, I saw a picture that enticed me more.

The salad pictures at Wendy’s were so beautiful that I ended up ordering A salad instead of what I had planned on.This is huge for me, unlike me. I have been working on my mindset towards food, and it seems it’s working. I have been planning on having the burger and fries as a treat tonight, the salad was just as wonderful as a treat and it was delicious!

Changing your mindset about food is a process, it’s not easy, but it is so worth it! #down20pounds 

Yup. It’s my foot.

It shows two things that I am very passionate about. Butterflies, and breast cancer awareness. I have always loved butterflies. People at work call me Miss Butterfly sometimes as a joke, LOL. I have not always been passionate about breast cancer awareness. not until it directly affected me. That’s right, I am a survivor.

I’ve been fighting a cold for two weeks, and now my ears feel plugged. I’m going to have to actually go to the doctor, as this is it feeling I’ve never felt before. I do not want to lose my hearing. Sure that is probably being a little bit drastic, but when you don’t know, you think the worst. I think that’s the same for most people.

So I’m sitting here, in the bathtub, enjoying the bubbles. Tomorrow I will go and be told what is going on with my ears, likely something simple as it usually is.

Truth be told ever since that breast cancer diagnosis everything that should be simple, ignites fear. nobody is supposed to get anything, especially something like cancer, so yeah it’s there.

I’m not one that walks around worrying every day, voicing my fears. Just now and then I admit, I’m still scared.

See the light at the end.

So I haven’t been able to work out for a couple of weeks because of my asthma. It has been very frustrating to me, because I want to. Anyone who knows me would laugh at that, because growing up I did everything I could to avoid working out.

I have been doing other things to fill my time. Sleeping, watching TV, sleeping. LOLI guess I started to feel a little depressed. It’s understandable, I can’t control what my body is doing. I can only do what I need to do to make it better.

Today’s the first day in the last couple weeks and I finally feel like I’m almost there. I am hoping to be back to working out by Monday, fingers crossed.

Here is to hoping I’m right and I’ll be back to me soon! 

I wanted a donut.

This morning I woke up craving a donut. I woke up thinking of it. It’s soft center. It’s sweet deliciousness. The way it just melts in my mouth when I bite into it. I can almost taste it even now.

Then as I was thinking about going to get this beauty, I thought of others I wanted. That is when I knew I could not have one today.

You see, I knew that if I went to get the one, I would not stop at the one. I would have had 3 or 4, plus donut holes.

I would have ate them. I would have felt like crap after and felt guilty. So rather then put myself through all of that, I skipped my donut today.

We all have weaknesses, weak moments. I almost fell into one today. Instead of the blueberry sprinkle donut I wanted, I had some toast with blueberry jam and it was delicious! In the end I was proud of me and I felt strong!

Oh I will still get my donut. It is going to be even more wonderful.

Too much Ranch?!?!?

Is there such a thing? I guess that depends on the ranch, honestly.

If I’m at home and just using Hidden Valley ranch I don’t need much. If I go to my favorite place, like I did for lunch today. Game on, it’s time for all the ranch! Souplantation has the best ranch ever!!

I do use less then I used to, but it is still excessive. Not gonna lie. It is also a treat for me. It was sooo good!

Ok ok so there really is not all that much ranch. Only one of my salads is drenched in it. I put extra cause I dunk my pizza bits, and my croutons and pickles ( oh gosh the pickles!!!) in it too!

And then just one little muffin for dessert!